It’s been a fucking hard 72 hours. Now all I want to do is sleep and sleep some more! Thank you Cider and Phenergen!
Her face just screams “christmas cheer” not “im going to murder you in your sleep” right?
:) I CAME OUT.
*squeee* your coming out is JUST AS important as mine if not more important baby. I am so proud of you for coming out to mum and I’m so so so happy that she took it well :3 :3 :3 It was probably cause you had the chippy chops for protection right :3?
i love it i love it i love it
if I ever get married I don’t want an expensive ring like I really don’t if I got a ring worth $15,000 I’d be mad do you know how many video games and pop tarts we could’ve bought with that
Get me a $2 ring and take me to NYC and do it on top of the Empire State Building.
My Grandmother just gave me her full blessings to use her late husbands first name as my middle name and stated that she thought I had been leaning towards being more manly for years. God there should be more people like her- 85+ and 110% accepting of me —> gay or transgender she loves me regardless!
Flying pre christmas visit back to the family <3
F. If you could take on the exact body and form of anyone else on Earth, who would it be?
Some guy- any guy really. If I was being really picky I would probably say someone like Chris Hemsworth or Channing Tatum but any guy would do.
G. Would you rather burn or freeze to death?
Is it weird that I’ve thought about this before? Freeze hands down. I would much rather freeze to death than slowly choke on smoke and then burn slowly.
J. Could you live without having sex ever (again) in exchange for eternal youth?
Yes. And anyone who knows me in my current form knows that all I want to do is escape and travel the world. Post starting T and top surgery the answer I suspect will be no.
K. Have you ever watched a full length pornographic movie?
N. What was the worst nightmare you ever had?
I used to have bad nightmares all the time and I’d wake up sweating but I don’t want to disclose those. The worst childhood nightmare that I can still remember in vivid detail is one that explains my fear of snakes. I was being chased around my suburb (only one entrance and that’s a bridge) by a big mother fucking snake (think Anaconda movie) and I couldn’t get away from it no matter what I did!
V. A world without religion, good, bad, neutral?
Bad, we all need a little bit of faith and a lot of people take their faith with their daily dosage of religion.
I’m so fucking scared. I hope I’ve done the right thing. I hope i’m doing the right thing. When I’m away from my family it feels 110% the right thing- I look at myself and I can see the handsome young man I want to be, need to be. But when I’m with my family I just see the pain and the suffering I’m causing them and that’s not what I want- they don’t deserve that.
I told my sister this afternoon and her eyes just welled up and she said “So you’re not going to be my sister anymore, you’re going to be my brother? But you’ve been my sister for 21 years, I’ve never wanted a brother” and then she burst into tears.
I’ve got to tell my dad and my stepmother tomorrow and I know they’re going to kick me out. They’re going to kick me out and cut me off. I’m not going to be able to see my little sister (7 and 11) and I’ll be lucky if my dad lets me keep my car (that he went halves with me on). It won’t matter that I’ll tell him that it’s either transition or suicide. I know he’d rather have a dead daughter than an alive trans son. He wants the perfect family- and a trans “freak” son isn’t going to fit into that equation.
Some days I just want to crawl into a little ball and never have to make any hard decisions. Some days I just wish I had never opened this can of worms and I could have stayed content with my gender identity forever- or at least til it was ‘too late’ to change anything… Fuck.
A. If you could get away with one murder in your lifetime without any legal, social, or emotional repercussions, would you kill someone?
If someone ever seriously hurts my family, especially my little sisters or my mother or my girlfriend and I could murder them without repercussions then yes probably. But it would have to be some serious hurt.
B. What is your first thought when you receive a message on Tumblr, are you excited for the idea of someone from potentially the other side of the world wanting to talk to you or fearful that someone will criticise you?
Generally excited- the majority of the anons I’ve had have all been pretty nice. Sure I get the occasional hateful anon but usually it’s after I’ve posted something that I know is going to be contentious- like being trans and religious at the same time.
O. Would you rather spend one year with your one true love just to never see them again or the rest of your life with second best?
True love every time. Better to have experienced the best and continue to strive for that then settle for second best.
W. The men’s rights movement, legitimate cause or laughable, and why?
I feel as if this question is a bit too deep for me to form an educated answer simply because I know too little but my non-educated opinion: until cis-men have to go through the same discrimination as women do in the workforce, for education, in religious realms then the need for a cis-men’s rights movement is lackluster. Nowhere in the world discriminates against males on the same page as it does cis-women. But at the same time there are a few issues that men face that are considered ‘women issues’ such as r*pe, breast cancer etc. There needs to be appropriate recognition of these events in some way but a rights movement potentially not.
X. You can eliminate one of your five senses to substantially strengthen the others, which one and would you do it?
EASY! In my line of future work (paramedicine) the most useful senses are our sight and hearing abilities (+6th sense) so they’re automatically cancelled out. Following that I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t taste wonderful food or caress my girlfriend’s body. Therefore we’re left with only one sense- smell. To be honest we use many techniques to suppress our olfactory abilities when we’re out on job- we mouth breathe, we put eucalyptus oil or vicks under our nose because we smell some pretty horrible things. Sure I wouldn’t get to smell dinner burning or my girlfriends shampoo or fresh rain but I could live with that.
do you ever get the urge to clean your entire room and then 5 minutes after u start you’re like nah son and u just lay on the floor
|A. If you could get away with one murder in your lifetime without any legal, social, or emotional repercussions, would you kill someone?|
|B. What is your first thought when you receive a message on Tumblr, are you excited for the idea of someone from potentially the other side of the world wanting to talk to you or fearful that someone will criticize you?|
|C. Have you ever looked down on someone because you thought your religious views were superior?|
|D. Would you rather know everything the universe has to offer but in exchange lose all emotions or remain the way you are now?|
|E. If you could live and be healthy without sleeping or eating/drinking, which would you cut out of your life?|
|F. If you could take on the exact body and form of anyone else on Earth, who would it be?|
|G. Would you rather burn or freeze to death?|
|H. If it meant it would solve all world hunger, war, disease and bigotry, would you spend the rest of eternity in Hell?|
|I. Was the first crush in your life something you had or something someone had on you?|
|J. Could you live without having sex ever (again) in exchange for eternal youth?|
|K. Have you ever watched a full length pornographic movie?|
|L. The Beatles or The Rolling Stones?|
|M. If you could have the ability to manipulate matter or energy, which would you choose?|
|N. What was the worst nightmare you ever had?|
|O. Would you rather spend one year with your one true love just to never see them again or the rest of your life with second best?|
|P. All the sequels/remakes/adaptations/rip-offs in movies nowadays, good or bad?|
|Q. Would you rather be dirt poor and emotionally fulfilled in life or be rich beyond imagination and emotionally dissatisfied for life?|
|R. Do you have any (secret) feelings of bigotry to any group of people?|
|S. Would you rather be the only person in the world that can read minds or have everyone else in the world be able to read minds except for your own?|
|T. If everyone in the world would automatically only know one language, which language would you choose?|
|U. If you were old enough and not in a situation where it would be inappropriate, would you sleep with one of your (past) school teachers/professors?|
|V. A world without religion, good, bad, neutral?|
|W. The men's rights movement, legitimate cause or laughable, and why?|
|X. You can eliminate one of your five senses to substantially strengthen the others, which one and would you do it?|
|Y. Do looks mean anything to you? Don't lie, could you fall in love with someone you thought was ugly?|
|Z. Can you understand the mindset and logic used by the opposite spiritual opinion? An atheist understanding the belief in a higher power and vice versa.|
This is still my favourite gif ever.
He looks petrified